almost there

i still have some reservations on the answer i have come up with to my 'how to have your bag design produced' questions, but i feel i am getting to the end. whenever i am at that point of finishing a self-induced project, i tend to procrastinate. well, that is hard to confess. but there you go, i'm confessing it. i hope i don't fall into that trap this time and ever again. it's true, i have tons of other things to do, but i don't want to use that as a shield to protect me against putting that one last effort.

do you remember the video game street fighter? (attention: violent reference ahead.) there is a point at the end of the match where you are prompted to 'finish him!' (your opponent, that is. yeah, really civilized.) i sometimes find myself not being able to 'finish it!!' as soon as i am able to. but i always do finish them, somehow. does that sound familiar to you?

rebel against technology

ok. i'm not modelling the bag in 3d. doing so seemed kind of

pointless. maybe i am fed up with the 'whatever you do, make it 3d' attitude. it's not going to be cnc'ed anyway (cnc on wikipedia for the non-designer folks). there are millions of ways to present an idea, aren't there? i'll try and explore them a little. or i can die of boredom. seriously, sometimes i get fed up with 3d so badly, i can procrastinate up to infinity...

nowadays i get this identity crisis. am i the person i resolved to be ten years ago? twenty years ago? i feel i owe that person. that child. i don't want to betray her. but i feel i am... i don't want to keep the paths that i don't feel i belong to. are you the person you resolved to be ten years ago?

hmm. i also have this habit of exaggerating my emotions. i feel that living in denial is much worse than exaggerating true feelings, though. i don't know. all i know is i'll feel much better when i finish this baggy baggy. graphic design gods, come and help me!

plasticinized

i'm in preparation of some other weird stuff, too. sometimes i feel that i'm afraid to... finish things. do you get that feeling, too? i have a deadline approaching. i've already announced that i will do this demo. i've prepared lots of models. and it's not all that much time consuming (although it is a little bit). but suddenly i feel that i'll never be able to make it. suddenly i find tons of other stuff to do. like folding the clothes. or cleaning my desktop. or sleeping. this happens to me all the time. why oh why? i've always managed to keep to my deadlines, but this stupid feeling always has to nag my head in the process. i'll never get wise i guess.