spontaneity

i think i might have broken my hip while running. naah, i think it would hurt a little more if i did so.

as you are thinking that you've got it all figured out, and you believe that you are realising your plan day by day, something comes up from out of nowhere that smashes it all down. something unplanned and that you have no control over. then you wake up from your little illusion and think 'wow, i'd better make the best of my time around here! it's not infinite, i guess.' you have to be reminded of that again and again and again. how stupid.

here, have some pears from our garden. fresh and organic. no worms included.

january sucks

i just had too much fun overexposing effects in illustrator. i'm not even sure i can achieve the background image here once more. hehe. i think i like this effect better. still not completely happy with the colors, though. i'll try some combinations and upload here. lcd and crt monitors have a great color difference, by the way. anyone out there still using those monitors with huge tubes at the back?

i kind of try to get rid of the misery that has been surrounding me for such a long time. it doesn't seem to be going anywhere, though. anyway, in that attempt, i did some major decluttering:) i did a clothes, extra paper and computer data massacre. i planned my week and month. the misery is still there, but at least i feel 'fresher':D. why does getting rid of unnecessary stuff gives one such a perverse pleasure? what does that have to do with anything? some sense of control maybe?