i'm not dead (yet)

happy new year to you all! i wish you a year full of beauty and inspiration!

hehe if there are any readers left, that is... i feel guilty, like i have abandoned my child or something. but every day is a fresh start, no? the good thing is, i have accumulated some stuff i would like to post. the bad thing is, you may find them totally irrelevant :) ahh, focus, focus!

dress code

when i work full-time, i envy freelancers. when i work freelance, i used to envy 'full-timers'. i think not any more. of course, i don't want to offend anyone, and i cannot say %100 that freelancing is my future from now on, but... i think it's my future from now on:)

with all its depressive moods, loneliness and not being able to self-motivate, with all its panic attacks (oh my, i will never be able to get a new job. i'm doomed forever.) with all its guilty feelings (nooo i'm not making enough money! -enough money for what?), with all the sloppiness that comes along with freelancing (honey, are you wearing pajamas again?), with all its social insecurities, i think it will be my way. i think i'm addicted to freedom, however great a price it comes at. did i just write that?

eyestrain purple

all of a sudden, some job becomes the most important thing in the world for a few days. you lose sleep over it, you become overly involved in it, you feel guilty for leaving it aside just for one minute, you get back pain because of stressing over it too much. you don't spend time with your loved ones-not one second-because this job is sooo important. and then, all of a sudden, nobody cares about it anymore. all that nervousness, all those nightmares. just for nothing.

so we can align them left, too!

blogger sometimes drives me crazy. or it is me that drives me crazy, because i just can't do things. things that should be piece of a cake. (cake, mmm!) if you have any idea how to snap my header to the top, could you pleaaase share with me?

with that said, it is now time to meet the bookmark (here's the book). i told you that would happen sooner or later. what are your opinions? i finally came over the guilt and the laziness. and it only took me twenty minutes or something. i wish i didn't turn my mother down in the first place, it really wasn't worth disapponting her. do you too sometimes feel unnecessarily incapable?

yesterday i went to a meeting that went really well. i have this 'no job talk' policy in my blog, because one: i could easily violate some laws or business rules. two: it is boring. and three: this is a no-stress zone!! but i just wanted to share that i feel good about this meeting.

p.s.: don't make loved ones sad!