zona prohibida

this is all i can show right now from the new design of my blog and website. a small sneak peek. i will try to combine those two; both physically and designwise. is that possible? i think i will have to learn a lot of css for that. can we call css the big brother of html?(excuse me for the ultra technical references!) yet another session of learning new programs for me. sigh.

the website is progressing, though not as fast as i want it to. you know i constantly have the famous freelancer's dilemma of trying to motivate myself when nobody wants anything from me yet. but when i don't come up with new things to offer, nobody will want anything from me anyway. it's a snake trying to eat its own tail. i have to make him spit it out! the dilemma might not be famous at all.

dress code

when i work full-time, i envy freelancers. when i work freelance, i used to envy 'full-timers'. i think not any more. of course, i don't want to offend anyone, and i cannot say %100 that freelancing is my future from now on, but... i think it's my future from now on:)

with all its depressive moods, loneliness and not being able to self-motivate, with all its panic attacks (oh my, i will never be able to get a new job. i'm doomed forever.) with all its guilty feelings (nooo i'm not making enough money! -enough money for what?), with all the sloppiness that comes along with freelancing (honey, are you wearing pajamas again?), with all its social insecurities, i think it will be my way. i think i'm addicted to freedom, however great a price it comes at. did i just write that?