plasticinized

i'm in preparation of some other weird stuff, too. sometimes i feel that i'm afraid to... finish things. do you get that feeling, too? i have a deadline approaching. i've already announced that i will do this demo. i've prepared lots of models. and it's not all that much time consuming (although it is a little bit). but suddenly i feel that i'll never be able to make it. suddenly i find tons of other stuff to do. like folding the clothes. or cleaning my desktop. or sleeping. this happens to me all the time. why oh why? i've always managed to keep to my deadlines, but this stupid feeling always has to nag my head in the process. i'll never get wise i guess.

don't go to the biennale the last day

today i went to the biennale. what did i think? good subject, surprisingly real. i must say there were some works that i really enjoyed seeing. there should be thousands of more audience, though. which is an unrealistic expectation. i think that is what bothers me. the artist and the actual audience are pretty much the same person. which is kind of weird. oh, and they ran out of booklets when i went there. grrr! do you have a spare one for me? please?

by the way, i did find a subject for the demo and have been working on it like crazy. my nights are becoming more and more sleepless. it is kind of fun, though. i'll let you know about the specifics when things are clearer. they almost never are, aren't they?

la cabeza loca

hehe not only have i not been able to find a subject for my demo, i announced that i would do it in front of a handful of people. i better find something or i will be in serious trouble. strangely enough, i have been feeling quite happy and relaxed. what to do now? oh, i can extend my announcement to hundreds of people, so that my embarrassment will be even bigger if i can't manage it.

la cabeza rota

i have to think like crazy. there will be an upcoming event and i want to do a demo! the problem is, i'm either too busy preparing lessons etc. or too tired to even move my finger. grrr! no matter what, i have to do it! i'm desperately in need of time to prepare a demo... can i have some 12 hours added to a day? or i can cut off 3 hours of my sleep maybe? no?